Travel

I went to NY, and all I got were these awesome memories

30th November 2015
Holly and Ilana do New York.

 (pic: Ilana Fox)

I’m heading back from one of the best four days of my life. I’ve been staying in New York since Sunday and in that short time I’ve been privileged to finally meet my legendary US editor Linda Marrow and the team at Ballantine Books (Penguin Random House).

When I had just turned 25 and newly arrived in London, my office was in Victoria in the south west of the city. At lunch times, I would walk around Pimlico and Vauxhall, and inevitably find my way by the Random House building on Vauxhall Bridge Road. I would gaze for a moment and then walk on, because standing on the street staring at buildings is weird and besides, I had to get back to do my job. Not my fantasy job of writing books.

While I gazed, I used to dream for a split second. I wouldn’t let the dream really take hold, it was just the slightest itch of a hope.

When I was offered a publishing contract for the United States with Ballantine Books, an incredible imprint of Penguin Random House after agreeing a deal with brilliant UK publishers Atlantic, I finally allowed that dream to take shape.

On Monday, I walked into the New York offices on Broadway, unable to control my smile. I smiled the whole way round the office, all through lunch and into every meeting. I must have looked quite mad. But I don’t care.

I loved the city, both energy-zapping and energizing. It’s like the best kind of friend. Drags you out when you’re feeling tired, forces you to have fun and then takes you for coffee the next day. And I could say the same for my friend Ilana, who literally did the same thing. She is the New York of my friends, and I was so lucky to be able to spend time with her out there.

And now I’m waiting for the plane home to see my heroic husband and the four kids he’s been single-handedly looking after. And I still can’t stop smiling.

Thank you for having me, NY.

Books, Life

A Love Letter to All the Libraries

8th August 2015
Holly Seddon and baby outside a library

When I was a kid, I was weird. And not in that floppy-haired, no-one understands me but I’m still really cool and actually, if I just took off my glasses everyone would hoist me on their shoulders and carry me around ‘weird’, but plain weird. One time, I rescued a bee – a dead bee, mark you – from the school playground so I could take it home and give it a proper burial.

Another time, I took it upon myself to deliver a ‘Just Say No!’ anti-drug workshop for my peers, complete with ‘chasing the dragon’ tin foil handouts so they knew what to look for. On the eve of my big presentation, my mum swerved me away from this (apparently doomed) course of action and I had to cobble together a presentation on fashion instead. Considering that from the age of nine to twelve, I had one standard outfit (dungarees and school shoes), this was a horror show.

So I was weird. And a lot of times I was quite lonely. Sometimes, and I never knew why at the time but probably due to all of the above and more, no-one wanted to talk to me, or play with me. And this is where all the libraries came in, like knights in paper mache armour.

The school library was a lunchtime haven, where I researched witchcraft and the occult for the ghost stories I was writing (entirely inspired by the Ghost of Thomas Kempe) and where I had my first fist fight with a dimwit called Edward over the spelling of psychic. Blood was shed.

I’ll always love the local library in town where I used to spend hours after school doing my drug research (I know…) and reading autobiographies like Moonwalk by Michael Jackson (which I now feel left considerable chunks of information out).

I checked out as many books as I was allowed, honestly I don’t really think I ever bought a book back then. I got 60p pocket money each Saturday, I’m pretty sure I couldn’t have afforded to buy a book even at 1980s prices. I made a special trip just to visit this library once more before I left the country recently, and I was taken aback by how tiny it was because, as a kid, it contained EVERYTHING as far as I was concerned.

I carried on checking out piles of books from libraries throughout my childhood and teens. I always had a book on the go, often more than one, and while my teen years were way happier and less lonely than some previous years, books were still a sanctuary. I am absolutely certain that I could only have read a fraction of those books if I had needed to buy them. And there wasn’t exactly an embarrassment of bookshops where I lived either, so it was basically whatever had been donated to the charity shops.

It’s not just about books though. The college library was where I first got an email address and used the computers to do my A level work and search for jobs in London to daydream about. I’ll call that era ‘the Netscape Years’.

When I was a very young and very skint mum, libraries were a haven. A free (and warm) source of entertainment for my tiny kids.

Libraries are not just about books, especially in adulthood. Especially when you’re vulnerable or even just a bit lost. For a long time, for me, the library was the only way to get online. I can’t even imagine – in this time of paperless Universal Credit applications – how some people would fare without this.

I haven’t needed the library so much in recent years, but when we went to register our youngest child’s birth in January, the registrar was based in the library and it made my heart soar to see how well used it was. The buggies stacked outside the kids’ library section, the older people talking about books and a few quiet browsers of all ages in between.

I live in a new city now, in a new country. At times, I feel lonely and cut off. I’m still a bit confused about the rules and my place in this new life. My youngest son starts at nursery in a few days and I’ll finally have proper chunks of writing time back. I was out walking with the rabble the other day when I stumbled on something that instantly made me feel calmer, and more at home: the library.

Admittedly it was called Bibliotheek, but it was as familiar as any library back home. Books to the ceiling, people quietly working at desks and computers, that smell that you can’t quite describe but is instantly recognisable. I immediately knew where I would head to spend my writing time, alone but surrounded by people. Just like I’ve always needed, just like libraries have always given me.

Libraries are so much more than books. They are still relevant, they are still vital. They will help the next generation of readers and writers to find their feet, the next generation of young and skint parents to give their kids a love of reading that costs nothing, the next generation of job seekers a route to apply for employment if they don’t have online access of their own.

To lose any libraries is to lose a part of ourselves, our history and our future. I’m so glad that authors like SJ Watson are standing up for libraries, and I hope everyone that ever lost themselves in a good book, and found themselves in a great library, will stand up too.

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I’ll always love the milk aisle in Sainsbury’s

19th July 2015

tumblr_nrq5kxWE4R1qzp23eo1_1280I know. Weird. But this is where I was standing when I casually checked my email inbox while reaching for a couple of bottles of red top, back in January 2014. And so this is is where I was standing when I got the email from my (now) agent who said she’d read my full manuscript over the weekend and would like to meet.

So this is where I was standing when everything changed.

As I’m leaving Kent and leaving the UK next weekend, I had to go back and surreptitiously take a picture of this very personal, very public spot. You’ve no idea how long I had to wait until there were no other shoppers watching. Worth it.

Writing

Why Arnold Schwarzenegger is my literary hero. Kind of.

1st January 2014

First up, I love Arnold. I’m not being snidey and ironic, I really love Arnold. My dog is called Arnold Strong, FFS.

Whatever you think of the muscles or the politics, there is no denying that Arnold takes care of business. He gets stuff done. Irrespective of circumstance and raw materials, he focuses on something he wants to achieve and then achieves it. In his book Total Recall, he likens this to weightlifting: reps, reps, reps. Maybe because I also love to weightlift, this stuck with me. Everything is improved with practise, it just is.

The other thing that struck me in Total Recall, was Arnold’s annual list. Yes, 99% of everyone seem to blast out new year resolutions on Facebook every year, snivelling their hangovers into their January 1st cup of tea. But the Arnold List – as I call it – is different. And not just because drinkers’ regret isn’t the basis.

Every year, Arnold writes his list of goals for the year ahead, one by one he crosses them off as the weeks pass. This is a lot more focussed than a resolution, and can either be achieved through reps, reps, reps or by seeking out a good teacher. (Arnold is a big believer in reaching out to get help and advice from experts).

My Arnold List for 2013 was a mixed bag and I didn’t achieve them all. It wasn’t focussed enough. The things on there weren’t of equal top priority to me, so of course I didn’t give them all the same attention and effort. I didn’t even attempt one of them (the short story, what a silly aim). What I did achieve was what mattered most.

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So for this year, I am stripping it to absolute top priorities, what really matters? Yes, I want to achieve a sub 50 minute 10K, I want to squat 100kg, I want pay off my credit card (okay, one of my credit cards) but if I’ve not done these come 31st December 2014? Meh. A shoulder shrug. They don’t belong on the list.

This year, outside of my job – which I’m ALWAYS focussed on, in case anyone’s watching… Haha, no I really am – it’s all about the writing. No diversions, no distractions. I’ve deferred my Open Uni (I couldn’t give it the whole ass last year and I hate doing a half-assed job of things), I’ve chilled out on the gym a bit.

It’s all about the writing. And the rewriting. And the writing. And the rewriting. Reps, reps, reps.

And I’m happy to say I’ve already struck the first thing off my 2014 Arnold List. And it’s a whopper.